dont sweat it.it's set

Thursday, March 29, 2007
9:13 PM

i'll wait for the song to finish dl and i'll be off!
i'll mean it this time (:

tmr's ss and amaths test, i havent started but am already falling asleep.

the most retarded thing happened just now, i choked up my sink and couldnt find the pump thingy, called my mum who's like overseas she told me to leave it. but i was like hell, cant leave it it's so damm gross, so i searched the ENTIRE HOUSE for a pump, and found the toilet bowl one. oh well who cares, brought it to my room. then shit i dnt knw how to use it. so was like practically playing with it and WHOOOSH. suddenly the sink was cleared, but it was so ridiculous so i continued playing -.- i think i can go repair choked sinks alr :) haha!

dance prac plus gateway after school just now. gateway, we think until we srsly started thinking super out of pt stuff. and SO MUCH FOR MY GUN IDEA. i dnt care, i'll still keep to what i said this early morn/ last night! unless am desperate that is. so now -> VOLCANO, or CAR. i think the volcano's idea's cool. (as well as many other adsurd one's i've come out with :O ) dance prac was well, FUNNY. just dont embarrass ourselves too much tmr can alr, since like after last yr, nth's worse is there?

to understand, you've got to experience

fix me in.45

12:33 AM

( i declare studying in front of the computer is useless. )

I JUST HAVE THE MOST ABSURD IDEAS FOR GATEWAY AGAIN.
but we'll do a detailed proposal
and not leave out any single detail
or overestimate the weight it can take
or be too over ambitious :O
we'll work hard together, yes
do a second trial, a thrid if needed
work towards our target:
an ORIGINAL gateway, that's CLIMABLE yet IMPRESSIVE.

i wont leave guides with a pathetic gateway,
i CANT.
it's damm sad the way we're seen,
like some easy piece of shit.
and i finally understood what THEY mean,
fucking USELESS.

wells, at least you share the same opinions,
allowing me to just blabber it all out once and for all.

fix me in.45

Sunday, March 25, 2007
3:38 PM

adam khoo workshop for thepast 3 days, didnt really motivate me to like what, study study and study. ( for one, i still havent started studying for real since wednesday?) more like it made me see more purpose in studying and realised that i have to have a real purpose in life to go on, and wells, to appreciate others better and to hmmm. love myself?

all three days were hilarious, esp the first day where we laughed like hell. we didnt get scolded at all, our trainer ramesh saw no point in it, that's what he said. anyway we were already crying like hell with him not scolding on the second afternoon, damm malu lah, i never ever cry in front of my classmates before (sides reflection day, and it wasnt bad?) and on the third day, cried again singing hold on to your dream (brings back memories huh) after writing letters. then everything was well till at night, after damm sian parents talk, then some ppl went up one by one to say what they wanted to say, and many just cried like hell again :/

wells, we shall work hard together yeah! i feel motivated to concentrate when i study though :O perhaps i shall start right now. :)

fix me in.45

Tuesday, March 20, 2007
5:48 PM

so i just came home when i could have been home a damm hour earlier?!! was trying to print photos at the photo machine outside school, but they couldn't load?! after trying in the wee hours of this morning and then with may's suggestion to print photos instead, and waiting half an hour for the woman in front of me to finish (she was talking on the phone can.), that is. so irritating can. now i've got to try to use mydamm colour printer again. :/

who would care even if i say i am?
i'd look more like i'm lying, and i myself am not sure.
i'll just carry on the way my life is :)

inside vs outside.

fix me in.45

12:10 AM

okay am despeerately trying to print stuff for some certain thing, but my damm printer i like dEAD?! uh what the hell. and is freaking late now for me to be sneaking here. HOW?!!! is not working!!!

am keeping more to myself again? is it cause i cant trust some certain people again? ah shit. or is it just that i feel damm shit when i tell people those stuff? oh wells. you think you know, but actually you dont.

it ain't over till it's over

fix me in.45

Sunday, March 18, 2007
6:14 PM

the march holidays have ended and i as usual, wasted it away! :O okay at least i was more hmmm productive than usual (at least i studied some stuff though i didnt exactly alw concentrate >< ) so wells, not bad alr :D

honestly, i still regret wasting my sec1 life away. but maybe there's a good behind every bad? maybe if i hadnt wasted it away, things wouldn't be the way they are now.

10 weeks left officially. time sure does passes fast, and very soon it'll be Os and then out of this school. and bleah, maybe i shouldn't talk so far first. i just simply cant imagine, in just a term's time, i think i'll feel super empty?! forget it, i shant kill my well, not depressed or sad mood whatsoever, shant talk about it till the time comes! (i keep saying that but i never keep to it -.-)

should or not,
i cant decide.

fix me in.45

Saturday, March 17, 2007
12:08 PM

patrol bbq, well me and hilda did miss jun! sadly she couldnt come :( other then that, it was alright, relatively fun i must say. we relieved our childhood memories and played at the playground and freeze and melt (ice and water?!) and there was this cute little 4 yr old girl and we invited her to play 'what's the time mr. wolf' with us! bbq, abit i asked " do you all know how to start fire?" sec3s" ermm actually we were counting on you all" me and hilda were like ti-kaming how to start fire lah, and it went well! :D i think last night made fp a better patrol in a way, and at least now they're abit more open and not as quiet? and now we can leave guides knowing fp will live on! :D honestly, i did leave the bbq feeling much more relieved, it turned out better than i expected it to be.

do i have something against you?

fix me in.45

Thursday, March 15, 2007
11:05 PM

i'm in no mood to elaborate on anything and everything.
life has been a hell of a rollercoaster ride, and my hols have been wells, lessons, gateway with me and my pathetically pathetic absurd ideas, and talkings. if covering up will do it, just do it i suppose, since there doesnt seem to be any other way out of this. but, will the conscience, will the feelings be erased? it's never that easy.

lie low!
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2094453819
FOB!
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2094451593

circles, just stay on.

fix me in.45

Tuesday, March 13, 2007
5:52 PM

isn't it all too late, or not?
too late to turn things around,
too late to make up for what we've done
too late for simply EVERYTHING.

the world is a selfish place to be in, sadly.
i'm sorry, we're sorry if we've hurt you

(koped.)
what do you get from doing so much from guides?
this stumped everyone we asked. the answer is (after much ermmms), friends [ really? or enemies too? ] through the process of doing everything. (and a high L1R5)

amazing isn't it?

fix me in.45

Sunday, March 04, 2007
12:39 PM

FALL OUT BOY! <3
it was a blast lah :D

it may not be the most fun thing i've done in my life, well there was ALOT of waiting, abit they came out only at 930?!!! and some retarded people who screamed for nth made me quite sian. but still, it was omg, definitely an experience to rmb! took loads of pics, jumped jumped and JUMPED! shouted and screamed a couple of songs (omg lah, xm knew all the songs?!! haha!) it's a night we wont forget! now listening to their albums, the images of yesterday come flooding back and their songs seem alive!

i cant believe we actually counted down, went, and now came back from their concert. it just... doesn't seem REAL, does it?

perhaps, i'll have to clear my mind.

fix me in.45

Friday, March 02, 2007
11:00 PM

morning - high.
recess -SUPER HIGH.
guides - pissed and depressed.

i've never given up,
and i wont.
i promise i wont.

TWENTY ONE MORE HOURS.
yes, i promise i'll be high tmr, i'll forget today for once :D

fix me in.45

Thursday, March 01, 2007
10:22 AM

TWO DAYS.

chem test sucked :( let me pray my results wont suck hahaha. okay i kind of expected it cause i came home and watched tv first instead of studying though it was like 10 plus when i reached hm?!! haha! and i was too tired to really really study after that lol. haha! hmmm oh wells.

okay tomorrow's friday and then SATUDAY. and one week later! last day of term1 :D omg and saturday again got healthzone! and gateway and the campfire! and sec4 item and blah blah blah. omg how fun hohoho. life in sec4 aint that bad is it? haha!

:D :D :D
TWO MORE DAYS, A COUPLE OF HOURS.

fix me in.45

Tuesday, February 27, 2007
4:05 PM

FOUR DAYS!!

thanks, you just punched me in my face.
that was like just so NOT DIRECT only.
it hurts to see what has become of what it once used to be.
and for goodness sake, it is NOT funny
just stop it okay?
it's making me think twice when i shouldn't be.

LIE LOW, next friday! (i hope i can make it!)

fix me in.45

Friday, February 23, 2007
10:37 PM

EIGHT DAYS.
okay i got influenced to keep counting down.

once, is bad enough, not twice please!
maybe i am, am i?

fix me in.45

Thursday, February 22, 2007
10:45 AM

NINE DAYS.
(it's finally gone down to a single digit!)

cny was boring in the day, fun in the evenings and nights i suppose. got scolded on the first day for wearing shorts -.- what lah, the shorts are nice pls! :D went church, temple blah blah came home and my mum's side came over for dinner! like 50plus people?!! and i scrubbed the entire front porch after that late at night!!! :) second day was equally boring but yuka teru kenji came over ( i sewed my badges while waiting! like finally. ) and we played xbox etc then went for dinner and watched just follow law. it was damm hilarious lah. sadly, tomio was sick and cldnt come. well they'll be coming again this friday for bbq! :D third day dad's side came over for lunch, thankfully my closest cousin came too, apparently his bro stayed home to do hmwk (play computer games too rather) and their family stayed! headed to jurong pt to watch another movie but wth, we wanted to watch protege but NC16, wanted to watch epic movie, sold out. so four of us watched twins mission while the adults watched protege! the movie was pretty funny after all :D

and anw,
HAPPY THINKING DAY! :D

cleared of all?

fix me in.45

Thursday, February 15, 2007
10:34 AM

vday was, well. thanks for all the vday presents people! and to the many people who left stuff on my table w/o their names wtv, am sorry but i dont know who you all are, but thanks alot anw! :D and today's total def day and we're goign to have food rationing during recess and electricity shut down in like two minutes?!! i think it's so funny. haha!

oh and on monday, we discussed gateway proposal for campfire! omg am excited lah -.- i hope it well really work then it'll lok so cool, but we still cant figure how the hell are we going to put up the top roof?!!! ladders, and we may just jolly well die in the process o.O

16 more days!
WE WILL GO.

it really does pay off i guess.
and i promise, i will.
you damm it, dont need to bet on me on THAT,
i'm not dumb nor stupid, thank you.
well at least you give me more determination now huh -.-

fix me in.45

Sunday, February 11, 2007
9:39 PM

it felt like the old times,
but it'll never be the same.

you've just got to create the new times.

20 more days,
xm, stop being paranoid! :D

fix me in.45

Friday, February 02, 2007
8:34 PM

omg omg omg omg. my mum lets me go to FALL OUT BOY conert! <3 and me and xm became damm high last night -.- and now we're praying that the tickets wont be sold out... i guess i accidentally scared her, or rather ourselves just now.

i thought you knew me well enough.
at least, well, it's nice to spell it out loud.

dead as ever, sadly.

fix me in.45

Thursday, February 01, 2007
10:22 AM

that defeated feeling, that crushed look;
that bitter tone, that resigned voice.
i wont ever forget it, will i?

at least it'll end well i think.

and you'll never accept her as one,
you'll never care about her ever again.
not since that fateful day.

fix me in.45

Sunday, January 28, 2007
1:46 AM

so i broke my well, not using the computer at unearthly hours run, and here i am. oh well i just cant help it, can i? hmwk's so damm boring, like i've been doing hmwk and it's like never ending. stupid. rah there's still four freaking yue du ji chen, which i'd better complete bef he start's picking on me again :/ and like undoable chem and amaths?!!

at least there's tuesday to look forward to soon! going to watch movie after school w may and xm and jun! :D like my last movie was eragon?!!!

okay, this is irrtating. my radio keeps breaking down, or rather EXPLODING.

what have i done, that you have to do this to me?
of all people? sometimes i do feel,
stupid.

am i, or am i not enjoying it?

fix me in.45

Sunday, January 21, 2007
11:22 PM

i always knew you had a good heart, but today, i really SAW it.
i want to help you, but i dont know how to.
for whatever you do, i'll stand by your side.

from today, from now onwards,
i promise to treat you better
and to stop being mean to you!

and if i do pass my amaths tests tmr,
i'll srsly buy you sth, for all the time you've taught me.
thank you! :D

live out your dreams okay? :)

fix me in.45

Sunday, January 14, 2007
10:56 PM

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

cause of you, i learnt.
some things are just meant to be.

muddleness ;

fix me in.45

Friday, January 12, 2007
2:20 PM

gateway, helping emcees, campfire, cca fair, auditions. extra lessons and tests. probably summarizes the days i've been in school since the start of this yr.

secone campfire last week and had to appear as guest star, and i was supposedly looking mean. haha! at least it went well :D rachel looked really hermione and sounded like too, ron was brenda and it was funny, potter was well, jf and she gelled her hair and looked ridiculous, draco was may and her hair looked so malfoy but the amt of gel used was, hmmm may was about to kill me. cldnt really help much for gateway in the preparation, quite sad lah. at least gateway was well at the end i suppose :D

cca fair was kind of boring, kind of fun, w me and may cting all snape and malfoy at the end of the bridge and doing, stuff, to amuse ourselves, looking at the sec ones reaction. auditions were funny, we kept making them sing. oops.

lessons were as usual, boring, sides us keep asking for chocolates. and wth. had to change seats and ended up infront?!! was supposed to be at the back but gwong rearranged wth. tests well, am sure to fail amaths. hmmm.

sec four life is quite. rubbish. and rushed.
and kind of sad in a way, is the last of everything we do.

i got my motivation from you both,
and i thank you for that.

that feeling. useless, and torn btwn both sides.

fix me in.45

Monday, January 01, 2007
6:11 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D
countdown was super lame ytd, cause me and my cousins were at east coast park and the people counted down 4min early so not fun one -.- but cycling at 10pm at night ytd was definitely fun! besides cycling so ultra fast for no reason.

new year resolution.
to do my best in all i do this year, and to be more responsible and also, eh hardworking!

new year wish.
more freedom.

fix me in.45

Sunday, December 31, 2006
5:25 PM

back to singapore!
i decided to delete all my super longwinded posts of my hols and just leave the memories in place.

kona, hawaii.
going up the volcano, whale watching but there were no whales at all?! , submarine, shopping at ross dress for less.

honolulu, hawaii.
surfing and the "i want to go to singapore to meet singapore girls~" instructor, parasailing and getting dropped into the sea with yuka screaming about sharks behind me, bumpertubing, snorkelling at the super super nice bay.

osaka, japan.
losing the whole of christmas eve and christmas itself on the plane, universal studios! omg i love jurassic park and it's eight storey high fall :D , dinner at that weird place that cost us all food poisoning the next day, and watching teru sleeping during dinner was super hilarious.

some island in japan.
hotspring! the water is super nice and hot, and dinner and watching teru and kenji and their handstands and...

tokyo, japan.
disneyland! with all the super lame rides and not getting to see eeyore :/ and the super nice and cute parade, the super cold wind and me just wearing a pullover only -.- , dinner where the 4 bigger kids sat tgt and chose our own steamboat food and cooked ourselves! then making super alot of noise that this irritating woman went "excuse me, you're really loud, too loud." and we started making fun of her outside, shopping arnd then back home.

all in 7 plane rides, 5hotels and 2weeks.

i'll definetely wont forget this trip eh. with all the taiti-ing and cheating games to pass time! and our little "accidental" hotel room stay over on the last night! we so happened to "play cards until fall asleep" in our hotel room w/o any adults realising! and 5 of us squeesed into 2 tiny beds.

and of course! the chopsticks instructions! :D

how to use chopsticks in SEITARO ( i think is the name of the restaurant )

1. hold the joined chopsticks in the middle between the tips of thumbs and fore fingers and pull apart until they separate.

2. place the first chopsitck firm and stationary in a fixed position.

3. the second chopsitck is held like a pencil, with the tips of the thumb, index and middle fingers. manipulate this chopsitck to meet the first chopstick.

4. this manipulation will form a 'V' to pick up the food.

5. if you still cant use chopsticks by reading these instructions, try watching the guy beside you.

6. if that doesn't work, check out the guy next to him. if all else fails, use a fork or your finger.

fix me in.45

Friday, December 15, 2006
10:25 PM

me and sel passed first aid! :) it was quite funny actually haha!

flying off to hawaii and japan in like 10hours time :D
i so cant wait yay! haha! like finally.
but i wont have the privilege of coming online for 2weeks,
nor have auto roam for my phone :/ sad huh.
but i guess i'll be enjoying myself!!!!!!

for now though. i know very sure that is going to be super ultra tiresome on the airplane?! one entire day >< haha!

anw so here's wishing all of you a MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance <3

fix me in.45

Thursday, December 14, 2006
7:22 PM

went out w mel and watched ERAGON. omg it's freaking nice :) i want to watch it again! though the fighting part is quite copy lord of the rings o.o oh well still, the dragon is so cute! haha! and it's so much better than the deja vu movie i watched on monday :/ and before the movie started today, we saw the HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX TRAILER. :D yay! is super duper cool and i'll so definitely watch it next yr (july12) okay i'll watch it even if i didnt see the trailer haha!

ONE MORE DAY! (:
meaning one more day of first aid course too. rah.

maybe it's a cycle, maybe that's why i feel that way too.
what you do on to others will be done on to you.

fix me in.45

Friday, December 08, 2006
12:15 AM

just a little wish,
to stay on forever.

a year of pain a year of joy
a year of hurt a year of comfort
a year of sadness a year of happiness
a year of failure a year of success
a year of tears a year of laughter
~~and a year old reoccurrence~~
ive been thinking is this my 2006
just that which is more?
a year i want to leave behind
yet a year i want to hold on.

that poor kid's tired.

fix me in.45

Wednesday, December 06, 2006
11:46 AM

so i slept at FIVE am ytd. and lie in bed from 130 am. doing what? NOTHING. why? cause i just simply couldn't sleep though i was damm tired. cause i drank this super strong coffee during dinner time ytd?!!

lesson learnt: never drink coffee during dinner. ><

and now i just found out that i have tuition later!!! oh wth. i thought that it started NEXT WEEK. means am going for learning lab for THREE times this week?! monday- the last lesson. today- the first lesson of the new yr cause i changed class. tmr- replacement for last week cause i went shopping : D not funny at all seh.

i went shopping for the past two weeks,
pierced my ear.
a jacket.
a pair of jeans.
two long sleeve shirts.
bluetooth for my com.
memory card for my phone.
4storybooks.(my mum says she should stop me from reading such books cause it makes me mad?! :O haha!)
like finally, i got the stuff i want. :D

fix me in.45

Monday, December 04, 2006
1:07 AM

you were so close to the truth,
but never realised it;
just like how you saw the scar,
but never recognised it.

it just shocked me alot
it made me think
i dont know why i still care so much
i dont know what to do anymore.
~~but cry cause you'll never know the hurt YOU cause, the misery~~
it's never fair, is it?

fix me in.45

Sunday, December 03, 2006
9:45 PM

so after my not very nice week, i had a great weekend! :D
first things first.

friday.

woke up super late and started searching my whole house for my MISSING clothes for like one hour?! haha! went for tuition and then dental and GERO!

we just walked around vivo for 2plus hours, bookshopping, talking rubbish and taking spastic photos. ate not ya kun but WANG JIAO kaya toast for dinner o.O and shopped somemore. though we took night photos first! super funny lah. i bought my jacket! i thought my mum would scold me but she said it was nice instead, surprisingly.

OH I MUST THANK DEAR GERO FOR LENDING ME MONEY :D

saturday.

went for tuition. met xm and may at compass point. okay we COINCIDENTALLY met at popular, when we were supposed to meet at mrt at 2. haha! and we went to xm's house to do presents :) may kept wanting to go and play the playground -.- and we thought we had ALOT of time but in the end we finished just in time lah. haha! met mindy at pasir ris mrt and headed to aloha loyang! it was a LONG LONG LONG walk in. abit we didnt know have shuttle bus in :/

they were playing some aloha challenge halfway when we reached. at first it was super weird cause only four of us sec3s. played cheat and me and may paired up and kept suspecting ppl wrongly haha! then a couple of sec1s came followed by jiayin and adeline! bbq-ed all the food, was pretty fun.

i think it was my first time i PROPERLY bbq-ed. haha! ate dinner and there was this big commotion cause of a LIZARD crawling on the CEILING. there was SO MUCH FOOD LEFT. so we played zhou zi mi ma. i didnt get hit :D may, mindy and hannah left early.

we played abit of water, just getting our legs wet. then cut cake.

then here comes the super retarded yet hilarious and fun part! we were suppose to play captains' ball with my super small street soccer ball. but then the sec4s didnt want to get wet :/ so after a long time, we ended up splashing each other. ( the sec4s went arcade sides jolene and fanny, and the sec1s wore JEANS so they couldn't get into the water.) and pulling each other into the water and making each other SIT in the pool FULLY CLOTHED. then the sec ones kept splashing water at us from the side of the pool. so we planned. GET THEM ALL WET TOO!

us: hey! you all come and play captains' ball w us too lah
sec1s: err okay.
us: you all sit on the railing then wont get too wet!
(sec1s sat on the railing at each end)
us: okay we start game. blacks on side, colours one side.
(pretend to play for a while)
(look at each other.)
xm: blacks, you all stand there we all stand here then we start again lah.
blacks: okay!
us: (pretend to face each other and adeline gets ready to throw the ball at us) one, two, three...
SPLASH!!!! haha! and the sec1s both got super wet! haha!

so they played with us too in the end and we even went down the slide. then we started BOBBING to the deep end of the pool. and laughed like luantics. it was damm funny! we looked like heads bobbing up and down in the water! and jiayin got her 'first kiss' in a way from xm haha!

like. the moon had this huge ring around it and there was a line across in the ring. so it looked like and egg and the sperm swimming to it. and we were talking damm loudly o.O un til we realised after damm long lah.

(for certain reasons, i shall leave the more disgusting parts out ><)

after some time, we bobbed back to the shallow part of the pool and sang jolene happy birthday again cause we heard another chalet singing to JAMES BOND?! ( i think we heard wrongly though) haha! the ball was her cake!

then we tried the LOTUS position. and tried floating. then we played who can hold your breath the longest game! but we only managed to play once. during which someone started laughing halfway IN THE WATER and we all started too haha! and all the other times we couldnt start cos we couldnt stop laughing in the first place!

went back to the chalet dripping wet. and we shred towels and changed to dry clothes but we didnt bring extra insides. not gross only. haha! then went home!

(man u won their match too, to add to my highness!)

sunday.

went church, went out with my parents and shopped for a while, took lunch and came home. did some studying and went out w my cousins and went cycling! :D omg i havent touched a bike in ages? haha! i used to love cycling so much :/ went dinner and ate till super full lah. rah. and talked loads of crap. and i just came home :)

that's my wonderful weekend with a super longwinded story.

fix me in.45

Thursday, November 30, 2006
9:12 PM

since when did it start all over again?
oh now fcuking ignore me
cause am not worth it to talk to huh.
and i never knew you were that blind
or is it just me?

; covering up
i think that's what i do best.

fix me in.45

Tuesday, November 28, 2006
10:45 PM

life's like a roller coaster,
but with more downs than ups.

a betrayal of thoughts.
just go and die yeah

fix me in.45

3:07 PM

went school ytd and had some erm. gateway bonding cause apparently no one heard me when i said "can go alr lah" haha! then went macs for lunch w may jun xm and jiayin. then went to watch STEP UP! w them at j8. omg lah the show is damm nice. esp the dancing part :D then hung out there until 6plus and went to meet my mum at wisma to shop. but i didnt buy what i wanted to buy in the end lah ):

why do i keep starting,
only to hurt myself in the end?

fix me in.45

Sunday, November 26, 2006
3:09 PM

i just realised how much freaking homework i've got to do and all the tests to study for next year. including the fact that i've hardly ever paid attention in class for all the extra lessons so now i have totally no idea what the hell is going on.

and i left just less than 15days of my holidays to complete everyth, EXCLUDING going out. unless i plan to pack my textbooks into my luggage, which i obviously dont.

i think i'm either going to die from not doing homework, or die from figuring out how to do them. sad huh ):

fix me in.45

Saturday, November 25, 2006
11:42 PM

cherish every moment for what it's worth
cause in time, there's no replay;
memories are only those that last.
sometimes they dont even last forever.

sometimes i just need that reassurance.

and you gave it to me,
knowing that i'm not alone
it was great talking to you.

fix me in.45

Friday, November 24, 2006
8:21 PM

i went out even though i was sick, so now.
my eyelids feel so heavy but i dont really care,
my head feels so light but i dont really care,
my throat feels so sore but i dont really care,
my nose feels so blocked but i dont really care.
smart huh?

casino royale 007 :D
but dinner was so not fun cause someone forced me to eat that i actually finished one whole 'shrooms' meal though i had NO appetite can. i guess that was my breakfast + lunch + dinner.

who's rachel tay? ><

fix me in.45

Thursday, November 23, 2006
6:54 PM

camp's over! is kind of sad yeah. my last guides camp ( now i so regret not going in sec one ) , and probably my last camp ever in my secondary school life.

there's so much i want to say,
but i'll just cut it out.

am counting tissue papers :/

fix me in.45

Saturday, November 18, 2006
6:21 PM

cant get it off my mind,
sometimes I ask myself
WHY.

fix me in.45

Friday, November 17, 2006
11:36 PM

stayed back w jun, may, xm and hilda! we purposely called our parents to say that we'll wait for them, just to hand out. just like how we did last yr, on the last day of school. at 5pm, me and xm went to amk central to buy envelopes and bubble tea and went back to school at like 6. then may and hilda went out to 7eleven when we came back haha!

then jun came back from making her specs and me her and xm sat at the family lounge and talked. and xm going back to australia next year. so sad! my dear friend! then we were talking about which friends are closer and friendship...and we found out we feel alike! so anyway, she said her name is apparently complex so jun suggested she rename herself so the ang mohs can pronounce her name. betty wong xunmin!

decided that the clouds were nice so me xm and jun went to roof top garden. was damm funny lah. we were trying to avoid the tchrs walking by the staffroom so we ran out of the staircase to the rooftop garden then BOOM. two tchrs were just right in front haha! so we pretended to GREET THE CLOUDS and enjoy the scenery! they left and we snapped pics and started singing this totally retarded made-up song to the tune of campfire's burning

tay's butt is burning
tay's butt is burning
draw nearer,draw nearer,
in the sunlight, in the sunlight
come smell and be merry
tay's butt is burning now,
tay's butt is burning now
tay's butt is burning now,
tay's butt is burning now
draw nearer,draw nearer
sitting by her butt and taking in the smell
smelly,
smelly smelly poopoo
smelly
smelly poo poo
pooooot

and made me set as RINGTONE hahha! then we did that Gatsby song too and recorded it. and we told xunmin to dye her hair blonde in australia and do moehog ! so we made another song with actions and filmed it on my phone ! it was DAMN funny i had to stuff it in my shoelace and jun elevated it to such an angle so we could see all of us in the screen so the basically held her leg in that excruciating position for all our failed attempts !
(in deep and retarded voice)
if you're happy and you know it clap your hair (claps moehog)
if you're happy and you know it clap your hair
if your happy and you know itand you really wanna show it
if you're happy and you know it clap your hair (clap clap)

when we knew may and hilda were coming to look for us, we hid behind the stairs and played the song haha! then we live demo the whole song to them and laughed like hell lah. then we 3 ran to the other side of the roof top garden and LIE LOW! like the davinci code body hahah!

hilda bought ear biscuits !
heres the conversation with the stupid angmoh called xm
huda:i like ear biscuits !
xm:what are those ?
huda:take..i like to eat them layer by layer
may: me too !!!!!
xm: ohhh i know these ! but (inspetcs biscuit sideways) theres only one layer what !
may: layers as in INWARDS, not thick-wise !

haha! it started to get dark and we played lie low for most of the time and sang campfire songs ! but first a spot of astronomy.

may:i see saturn !
jun: i see mercury !
me :may, thats a plane -.-
xm: you're so anticlimax!

we went on shrieking until a teacher (OCC) walked along ! ah ! it was damn funny we leaped up and it was so embarrassing cos she saw us with out legs up against the railing and our arms up in the air screaming planet names ! oops ! was so scared she would report us to suzzie. but she didnt cos we're still alive (:

we sang and sang and sang.. and played peaceby the river with our feet ! there were really alot of stars that night, the sky was so pretty :D then we saw louiza and someone on the specs stand..threw and ear biscuit to them to try ! we bluffed them that we were selling on the roof garden and xunmin just turned around and announced to the trees: hi, would you like an ear biscuit ? then the minute they lost the tiny biscuit we threw we lay low and ignored them !

xm pretended to be a monster.
xm:raaaaaaarh ! -whispers- scream !
all: AHHHHHHHHH !
xm: -spastic face-BAH !
hilda laughed so hard and weirdly we all started laughing at her ! sang christmas songs and stuff and laughed like shit cos we kept shooting up when we heard footsteps. went to fam lounge then to the playground. but before that we marched pass the STAFFROOM singing the IF YOU'RE HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT, CLAP YOUR HAIR song. haha! at the playground we marched down the hill too and then marched back up singing songs again haha! then we sat at that high thing and sang CANON. which i went lalalal most of the time cos i keep forgetting where/what am suppose to be singing!

then parents called and off home we went. which was like 9pm alr. haha! and we greatly embarrassed ourselves by screaming in the fam lounge when we saw this HUGE HUGE cockroach flying o.O

(part of this is copied from jun!)
had the time of my life this evening/night. and we were saying how is probably the last(and first for jun and Hilda!) time we'll ever do this.
17nov 2007. if the gates are locked, we're going to climb over. haha!
a yearly affair huh. but sadly it'll only happen probably just once more in our lives.

i kind of want next yr to pass over quickly cos of O's and all, yet i dont want it to ever pass, if possible. i'll miss all of these kind of times forever, and the people. i want to remember this day forever, we all want to!

this is just the beginning of the story;
ups and downs.

fix me in.45

Sunday, November 12, 2006
5:10 PM

confirmation yesterday! :D
the end, yet the start.

went vivo after that for dinner to celebrate my uncle's birthday. shopped around before that and my dad definetely has WEIRD taste. then played the xbox game "burnout" at best with my cousins. is damm fun omg. like must crash all the cars to win haha! and i learnt never to go shopping in too high heels ever again!

from the start to the end, i stood there all alone.
it's kind of sad, but at least it's all over.

fix me in.45

Thursday, November 09, 2006
4:01 PM

hello since this blog is so dead i shall blog blog blog something INTERESTING for once on rtyms blog. :D
hahah hello rachel.
i decided to go into your account to read all the posts about last years stuff!
you lost your bet, buying me my ~~action city crocodile~~ tigger :D
and KUCHA. <3

was also reading all your lame invasions, and i guess now you have another invasion to add to your list of lame invasions :D

fix me in.45

Wednesday, November 08, 2006
8:51 PM

5 days w/o coming online! :D

so friday. had gateway. was pretty fun yeah. and walking in the mud w/o our shoes! but was quite slow lah.

saturday. retreat from like 7am to 9pm. no sleeping late again ): kind of sad it's the last cat class yeah. mel, i'll miss you!

sunday. hosted china scholars. me and xm went shopping after that! and she kept complaining how ex the fall out boy cd was -.-

monday. discussed about the night treadure hunt thing. omg damm fun! please lah can dont be so scared of YOURSELVES so easily not ar. abit we kept digressing. yeah DIGRESSING's everyone's new favourite word. haha!

tuesday. I FINALLY DIDNT NEED TO GO SCHOOL FOR LESSONS. cos i was researcher for that conference thing :D (i didnt do anyth anw) but had gateway -.- and it sort of failed o.O

today. went to that asia pacific mock conference thing and got my storybook confiscated. but it was so boring lah. especially being the pathetic AUDIENCE -.- what else can we do ar. sian lah.

intelligent answers.

fix me in.45

Wednesday, November 01, 2006
1:10 PM

cancelled out.

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Monday, October 30, 2006
11:26 PM

it's sad how life can be just so ironic
isn't it?

the betrayal of trust.

sth i feel that i live,
to be torn apart.

back to one tree hilling <3

fix me in.45

Friday, October 27, 2006
11:47 PM

koped photos from cheryl! here's the process of me being buried and them weeping over my dead body haha!

okay back to one tree hill ><

fix me in.45

1:06 AM

we went to sentosa on wed! like finally, aft the school cheated us of our hol last fri ): haha! woke up at 850am and was late as usual. duh. haha! BUTBUT. pt and wshin and mindy were later >< pity lynn was sick so she cldnt come ): ohwell. 5 of us met in the train haha! took train from dg to habourfront and off it was to sentosa (after BOO-ing cheryl on the overhead bridge and making her scream hahaha!)

the sky looked super gloomy at first but it turned brighter. ah. what a blessed day! the psi was the lowest in days somemore! sat the LUGE CART first. omg damm fun lah. and steph ended up laughing at audrey's falling helmet throughout haha! we took the skyrail back and SIYI DROPPED HER SLIPPER -.- and cheryl was so super scared! hahah! it's not high, cheryl!

took the BLUE line to SILOSO beach and te ben and jerrys. and we started to play volleyball with audrey's beach ball lah. how ahem. SUCCESSFUL we were. me, pt and cheryl got so bored we went to the water instead andand. the water was so NICE AND COLD. and the sand in the water was SO MUCH NICER. than the coarse sand on the beach lah! went back and started playing frisbee. but well. got bored again so me, cheryl, estee, mindy, steph and wshin decided to BURY PPL. (pt and xt disappeared while siyi and audrey went to the sea! ) and who did we bury? a nice little grave dug up for ME o.O yeah. they buried me! haha! was damm funny cos ikept STICKING MY LITTLE TOES OUT. so wshin had to keep pushing them back in haha! and i cldnt get out cos the sand was so heavy =/ but. estee felt my hipbone and started ticking me. and everytime i laughed, the sand VIBRATED. haha! and finally i laughed so hard until my legs got out haha! and they wanted to leave me alone struggling in the sand ): BUT I GOT OUT WITH MUCH EFFORT :D

we TRIED to built a snadcastle, but i must say it looked more like a HEAP OF SAND. haha! then we gave up and just lay arnd try to sun tan though there was no sun, while cheryl and mindy and wshin went to do audrey and siyi's crazy treasure hunt and they found a COCONUT HUSK -.- played somemore and we started taking photos! and more photos! (i think the photos look super crazy lah. and spastic. haha! ) and there's this photo we took, we asked some uncle to help us and abit we thanked him the stnicks way aft tt. haha! so ERMS lah haha!

then got the movie timings for the prestige at vivo and we tripped down there! some of us ate subway while the rest disappeared again. haha! then me, siyi, steph, pt, xt and estee wentto watch the prestige while the rest went shopping. omg it was DAMM COLD IN THE CINEMA. we were freezing like mad lah. and xt kept saying we were so wrongly dressed. haha! the prestige is damm nice (: but chim. it's like some magician story thing and u'll only get the first part of the story at the end. we kept wondering what was going on >< but still it's nice!

siyi rushed home, the shopping ppl disappeared, xt estee and wshin went dinner, steph pt and i went addidas to wait for steph to buy siyi's present, but she abandoned us and went home after that haha! me and pt went to food republic but in the end i didnt need to get dinner cos too ex -.- so we started to find our way to the mrt and it took FOREVER. haha! and we stopped by candy empire. OMG THE STUFF THERE IS SOOOOO NICE :D but so ex ): okay so we went to mrt and home (:

yikes! am so longwinded. conclusion: bring more money to sentosa/ vivo the next time. and vivo is a nice place to ~~shop~~ window shop! shall go there some time soon! photos!

okay. i shall be a good kid, and go to sleep aft this episode of ONE TREE HILL <3 and tmr, i shall wake up early at like 1030 ): to start studying chinese and not touch the com until i've finished. before i fail paper2 again.

my head's stil killing me ):

i live in a dilemma;

fix me in.45

Tuesday, October 24, 2006
2:20 PM

kboxing with my fam ytd was definetely amusing
and wwah cant sing for nuts.
and i learnt you're just a selfish little bitch,
going arnd demoralising everyone.

the perfection,
but it hurts so bad, so deeply.
how long more can i hide the truth?
i dont know.

you're just a liar,
you robbed me of what i deserved
and i tried so hard,
for nothing.
how long more can i trust you?
i dont know.

get out of my life,
that's what i hope for.
you know how must i hate being controlled.
how long more do i have to wait?
i dont know.

piece those shattered pieces,
i can do it no more.

fix me in.45

Friday, October 20, 2006
6:03 PM

i've been feeling damm sian for the past few days,
and i dont even know why.

sometimes i do things,
even when i dont want to do them;
i just want to runaway from all that,
i just want to quit,
i just feel that i dont belong.

sometimes i'm torn inbetween two sides,
i dont know where to go.
it's just that feeling that wells up in me,
that i cant leave yet i cant join.

sometimes it's hard to keep up,
but only with you,
it's doesnt seem that i'm walking alone;
i guess that's where my heart feels true.

sometimes i just hope that,
if things will ever be the same again,
if things can last forever;
i'd be thankful.

fix me in.45

Wednesday, October 18, 2006
5:48 PM

hell.
just accept me for who i am
wont you?

thank you.

fix me in.45

Monday, October 16, 2006
9:17 PM

got back mep on friday. maths, eng, chem, hcl and phy today. am happy with my results i must say, not like i did very well or what but i improved :D seems like my mum's threat of taking my hols away worked! (:

okay that's besides the horrible horrible chinese. and YOU. come on lah do i not have common sense and eyes of my own. OBVIOUSLY i know i failed right. so what if you're at the top of the world, you didnt have to be so sarcastic and POINT IT OUT TO ME. spare others some thought wont you.

it's been a long time that i've been happy for so many days nonstop. and adding to going out tmr. hope that wednesday papers wont spoil my mood!

some people know not their limits.

BARBADOS (: and the bong bongs!
sounds erm, cute huh.
~~hot barbie dolls!~~

fix me in.45

Thursday, October 12, 2006
7:52 PM

games carnival was damm fun today! much more fun i had than i did last year yeah. but it was damm tiring too. for one, they EXTENDED the soccer courts! i dont rmb it being so unltra LONG AND WIDE last yr! hahaha. then we ran up and down like hell and was damm chuan by the end of ONE game. and omg. SO UNFAIR CAN. we had SO LITLE TIME TO REST. like we finished FIVE games, all the other class had finished only THREE at most?!! was quite unfair sometimes. hmmm. but we got into semis anw, which sadly we lost through PENALTY KICKS. omg. reminds me of england and portugal yikes. played floorball and captian's ball too and after that we still went out to eat lunch and chat haha! i think am drained of energy now haha!

peiting! mtien! lynn! audrey! mindy! ben! wenshin!
i love our soccer team (:

we're a team!

fix me in.45

Wednesday, October 11, 2006
12:38 AM

5and a half hours of one tree hill, an hour of tv
and all the tear-shedding cause it's just so touching.
now my head's spinning like shit,
maybe i should go and sleep finally
i so love end of eoys, and i love one tree hill more!! (:

if only dreams do come true.

fix me in.45

Friday, September 22, 2006
4:06 PM

4days to eoy.
i am dying ):

fix me in.45

Wednesday, September 13, 2006
2:15 PM

hurt; it's a two way thing.

fix me in.45

Sunday, September 03, 2006
7:08 PM

i've decided to blog though am not supposed to be here.

so my life's just been crap. first, the ever so horrible deproving grades. then the ppr, like the first time i actually feel sad for myself=/ so now my wonderful life after eoys depends on my eoy results eek.

and it was not the worse. yet another failure i saw. i hope you'll know that i am truely sorry. i dont know how to make it all up yeah.

how the hell did it all come down to this?
sometimes i really feel like giving up.
maybe i should.

fix me in.45

Sunday, August 20, 2006
11:14 PM

oh gosh friday and saturday was dumb.
i thought my phone broke down (yeah it did shut off by itself EIGHT times =O)
but after many hours of trying to msg ppl but not being able to receive their msgs,
i felt that i should try delete my msgs. hmmm, HAPPILY spent half an hour deleting them and tada. wonderful! i started receiving my msgs.
ROOT OF THE PROBLEM = my wonderful 3000 msgs -.-
how nice, i was still thinking what happened to my phone lah

lessons from wed to friday will be so cool
with just 14 ppl in class o.O haha!

reignited that feeling;
the memories locked in me.

fix me in.45

Monday, August 14, 2006
8:23 PM

WTF. get lost.

it'd help if alot.

trust me, what you're going to do

will break me furthur, not make me.

i shall get down to studying bio now
and TRY to show you that i can
and that you're so wrong

i'm trying to change
~~though i still see no point~~

fix me in.45

Saturday, August 12, 2006
9:25 PM

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Thursday, August 10, 2006
2:05 AM

heh. national day's over. like i watched the WHOLE show for the first time

and now is like 2am i just finally did and finished my observing flora and fauna logbk BUT THE FILE TOO BIG CANT SEND ):
i shall try to get my bronze as soon as possible heh. though i think i'll just fail my logbook again.

oh gosh i still havent fixed IT and am still wondering HOW ON EARTH AM I GNA CARRY IT UP THE BUS ALONE AR. with no box or anything i think for one. it'll be too heavy, two. i'll look like some idiot. RAH. if any of you all see this before later. PLEASE FIND A WAY TO HELP haha!

i sound happier dont i, but i dont know why
my mood's lifted all of a sudden.

; you raise me up

fix me in.45

Tuesday, August 08, 2006
7:30 PM

ytd, i went MAD. really mad. as in high and crazy that madness.

then school national day celebrations this morning
march past was okay i think except that check up part heh.
i realised that some national day songs are sweet and meaningful!
went out shopping with xm may and hilda,
wanted to watch lake house but no one wanted to watch w me! =/
so i came home (DAMM EARLY like 2pm) carrying that heavy box
but after all i still went out again to watch lake house! (:

am starting to get back to my senses,
all i need now is to try and figure what exactly i want to do.

fix me in.45

Sunday, August 06, 2006
5:58 PM

it's just that bit of sanity
that's stopping me,

what the hell is wrong with you.

fix me in.45

Saturday, August 05, 2006
11:16 AM

AM WITHOUT A PHONE FOR A WEEKEND ):
i feel so cut off from the world

i've lost my sense of time and and my sense of direction
sometimes i just dont know what to do with my life either,
am just wasting it away

it started months ago;
a whole chain effect.

fix me in.45

Thursday, August 03, 2006
4:12 PM

the peopple who matter most
seem not to care.
i hope you'd prvoe me wrong
before it breaks me up

the forgotten one;
so small, so insignificant.

; just another stupid mistake

fix me in.45

Wednesday, August 02, 2006
1:37 PM

so i've been thinking alot bout what you said
and realised that it's true.

there are still; buts.

fix me in.45

Monday, July 31, 2006
12:55 PM

acs(barker) gangshow!

dance people (: in oriole caps and flowerpeck tee haha!

and without caps! our eyeliner and glitter ><

and again!

fix me in.45

3:37 AM

i promise never to forget my phone ever again
sorry i made you all worry!!

we didnt win best item, but i think we did great
just messed up the first song cos we missed the starting heh.
we didnt win best supporting either, but we did have fun

i guess you said right,
after every happiness comes a moment of sadness.

the very last;

fix me in.45

Saturday, July 29, 2006
11:51 AM

i declare i HAVE become very mean and i cant even stand myself ):
like why did i have to get others into trouble,
why couldnt i just shut up,
and why did i have to force others when i dont even deserve to?

let's jiayou for tmr's campfire, make it the best we can
practise, practise and practise!
practise makes perfect? yeah i hope so.
and that i wont fall again.

fix me in.45

Friday, July 28, 2006
10:15 AM

i think i'm becoming someone very mean.

that's not the pt though,
geog test's tmr and i haven't studied, or rather i haven't even opened my book. and i'm not even supposed to be here.
RACHEL!!!
go study for your test before you regret once more. it's still a few more hours before bedtime so you've still got hope (:
-tries to get myself determined and off i go!-

and i pray; please. just that once.

and they, still do fall. hard.

fix me in.45

Monday, July 24, 2006
1:26 PM

and photos specially for JIAYIN!! (:

her mynah patrol but i dont see her -.-

and her mynah patrol again! with her this time heh.

fix me in.45